Tuesday, January 1, 2008

So far so good....for now....

Ok, I did it. I actually had a good day. I've been doing this for, oh....7 months or so now right? Today was the first day I felt at ease with the Mom. I was my real age...not 12. Perhaps the stars were aligned just right or...maybe, it was my thought of trying to be more compassionate towards her. I dunno....I'm just happy with the results of today. I'll leave it at that.

My poor Dad. His brain misfires so much these days. I think my Mom finally figured it out today. I know it's got to be hard on her. I'm know it would sadden me if Lovee became that way. I want us to grow old together and sit in rocking chairs and talk about all our adventures and memories.....looking at all the pictures we've taken and laugh and giggle. That's my plan anyway. I know that may not happen, but for now.......that's dream I'll focus on.

With my luck, it'll probably me ME to go looney tunes. After all, I'm half way there already. LOL
Dad stared at this checkbook for HOURS today...trying to figure stuff out. He never really did.
I'm still hoping he'll let me balance it next time.

Tomorrow is the funeral. Ugh! I really dislike them...funerals that is. If someone dies and ppl can reminisce about the life that was led then that's one thing. But a stillborn baby?! I just can't wrap myself around that one.

More on that tomorrow.

4 comments:

Sunshine said...

Yay!! I'm glad you had a good day :) Here's to another one!!

R.E.H. said...

I think that is one of the things that scare me the most... that I lose track of myself and my surroundings once I become old.

I'm too fond of my mind, my memories and my family and friends for that to become blurred in my head.

Alli said...

I'm glad you had a good one, too. I think your approach to your mom is a good one. Keep it up!

It must be tough to see the changes that you are seeing in your aging parents, especially seeing your Daddy's mind not work quite the way it used to. Just keep remembering how much he loves you!

I'll be thinking of you today!

tt said...

reh- ditto! That's my thought exacty.It's a really sad thing to watch.

alli- he still remembers to tell me that..it keeps me going some days. Thanks for the thoughts

Sunshine- Lots more I hope :)