Monday, January 21, 2008

thoughts

Mmkay....Dr. Phil's over. It wasn't very exciting. It was about gossip, which I'm not very fond of. It's bad and has the ability to ruin lives. Nuf said...

But he did say something that hit home. he said, " It's hard to take 'stupid' back". No shit!
I've done so many stupid things in my life it's ridiculous. Seriously! I'd go a bit further and say it's impossible to take stupid back. The things is, once it's been done or said, the stupid thing...it never,ever goes completely away. EVER! You may not feel the repercussions of it anymore or hear about it anymore but it.... stays.in.your.mind!!!! Forever. It goes into one of those rooms in your mind that I 've talked about in the past. A room where awful thoughts go to collect dust. But like all seldom used rooms, once in a while the door is opened and a slight breeze flows through disrupting the dust and uncovering the dreaded thought and swirling it around the room. It peeks out and revisits. Then we have to go through the process of stuffing it back in there and hope the dust settles quickly.

I hate it when that happens. Really hate it. I haven't done extremely stupid stuff that would put me in jail....oops.....ok, maybe I did eons ago.....but it's mostly things I said...and a few action activities
too.... Try as I might I can't get rid of the stupid memories I hate. Guess that's Karma. It may be good that I can't forget all the stupid I've done. It probably reminds me never ever to do them again!
But, Oh I wish I could.
Nuf said......again.

6 comments:

R.E.H. said...

Yeah, there are a few "stupid" things I'd like to take back too. But, I too have found that it is nearly impossible to do so...

One has to learn to live with it, I guess.

Real Live Lesbian said...

Great quote...and yep, the brain karma sucks.

Alli said...

Without stupid acts, we don't learn...so I guess they are necessary. Huh?

Tweb said...

Imagine that, learning from your stupid mistakes... What a concept. (must.have.babe.read.this.post)

I know how ya feel...every once in a while, one of those "stupid" memories pop back in the gray matter and you do what you can to make it go away, which is HARD!

Jen said...

couldn't have said it better myself.

tt said...

reh-living with it is hard but it is what it is right..
rll--that's what I'mm gonna call it from now on..Brain Karma..thanks!
alli-I don't always like necessary...
tweb--it's almost a daily struggle for me...:)