Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Continuing on..........

All that being said....I think my Mom would be classified a 'new soul'. Yep...that's not a surprise to those who know her. I don't think. She's got an enormous amount of stuff to learn! She's such .....oh gee....should I say it?....actually put it in print?.....oh-what-the-hell.....she's such an 'attention whore! There!
It's all about her..always! Even when we had Dad in the hospital last weekend, she was finding ways to get the conversation back to her whenever Dad was asked a question. Good Grief Charlie Brown!!!!!! I seriously doubt she will ever change. Naturally it's a bit late in the game for that but a part of me used to have a wee bit of hope. You know, maybe when she gets older it will stop I thought. I was told that with age comes wisdom. Uh, not with my Mom.
If I hear her say how well I turned out because she raised me right, one more time, I think I'll puke! How about, I turned out ok because you only had control of me untill I was 19. How about I turned out ok because my goal was to be as different from her as possible. How about I turned out ok because ....because I'm an old soul....or at least an older soul than her. Perhaps I've had several 'past ' experiences and have learned a few things she hasn't. Possible? It's really hard for me to think that I purposely 'chose' this life though. I'm not completely comfortable with that thought process. But it's a thought.
Maybe it makes it easier for me to come to terms with my feelings for my Mom if I think that way. I dunno.
It is what it is.
nuf said.


Alli said...

I truly believe we choose our path in life. Some of us choose to learn from others rights & wrongs and some of us choose not to. I, like you, have always tried to learn from others.....

Funny, my mother and myself, too, have been refered to as "old-souls." :)

tt said...

An old soul you are!!

That's probably why I love you and your Mom so much!!