|All that being said....I think my Mom would be classified a 'new soul'. Yep...that's not a surprise to those who know her. I don't think. She's got an enormous amount of stuff to learn! She's such .....oh gee....should I say it?....actually put it in print?.....oh-what-the-hell.....she's such an 'attention whore! There!|
It's all about her..always! Even when we had Dad in the hospital last weekend, she was finding ways to get the conversation back to her whenever Dad was asked a question. Good Grief Charlie Brown!!!!!! I seriously doubt she will ever change. Naturally it's a bit late in the game for that but a part of me used to have a wee bit of hope. You know, maybe when she gets older it will stop I thought. I was told that with age comes wisdom. Uh, not with my Mom.
If I hear her say how well I turned out because she raised me right, one more time, I think I'll puke! How about, I turned out ok because you only had control of me untill I was 19. How about I turned out ok because my goal was to be as different from her as possible. How about I turned out ok because ....because I'm an old soul....or at least an older soul than her. Perhaps I've had several 'past ' experiences and have learned a few things she hasn't. Possible? It's really hard for me to think that I purposely 'chose' this life though. I'm not completely comfortable with that thought process. But it's a thought.
Maybe it makes it easier for me to come to terms with my feelings for my Mom if I think that way. I dunno.
It is what it is.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Posted by tt at 8:57 PM