Thursday, December 27, 2007

Grape squishiing bubbles.......

I just got through with a wonderful bubble bath that my Lovee fixed for me. He even scrubbed my back for me. He's a terrific guy I'll tell ya. And it got my grape going all over the place while I was just relaxing. So, now I feel the need to squish it a bit.
I'm not one to make New Years resolutions because........well, I just don't see the need. However, this year I think in 'Honor' of New years I will make, not a resolution, but perhaps a pact (or however you spell it) with myself. I'm going to try and not be so judgemental of myself. That's going to be a tall order, but these last few months have made me realize a lot of different things. One, I learned from my 'girls'...ETK,TWEB,ALLI, SUNSHINE....."it is what it is". So simple but packed with meaning. And so true. I can't change what's in the past so I'll try to give that up and just learn to deal with what's before me...here in the present. I'm 53 years old. I'm not 25 or 30 or 35 or even 45....I'm 50 elfing 3. So why do I expect myself to behave like I did when I was younger and look like I did when I was younger ? It's not going to happen tt. Get over it. Deal with it. IT IS WHAT IT IS!! Ha, ok, I finally get it.
It dawned on me when Lovee was washing my back. I looked around the tub and saw the candle he put there for me; noticed the heater was on so I wouldn't get cold; smelled the bath salts he put in for me....saw the smile on his face when he came in and said "How's that?...are you relaxing?" Oh.my.God.....he so loves me. All of me. The wrinkles the bulges and rolls...the age spots the stretch marks..the droops and sags......All.of.me!! ME. Just the way I am.
Sure, the girl he fell in love with was a perky little 120 pound thing with long flowing hair and a great smile and all her 'assets' in the right place. But that was 34 years ago. Why am I holding myself to a standard higher than I hold anyone else. Including him? I love him 100 times more today than I did when we got married. Why would I think he wouldn't feel the same...especially when he does the things he does for me....all the time?!
Squish the grape tt............it just put a biggle smile on your face....and probably made some wrinkles go away.....keep it up......never forget what you just wrote. Never try and down play what you feel for your sweetie! If it makes other ppl feel funny whenever you talk about how great your hubby is then too bad. Don't rub it in...but don't shrug it off either.
Lovee loves me Forever and Always...just like our song says. Bumps and buggles and all...and I'm finally fine with it.
Thanks Lovee!

4 comments:

ETK said...

Awww! That's just the sweetest thing I've ever heard - the bath he prepared for you, your retelling of it, your OBVIOUS love for him, and, finally - you realizing that you are perfect just the way you are.

LOVE YOU!

Tweb said...

That Is the sweetest thing ever.

And you know what? I love you for who you are too! amazing how that works out isnt' it? \

:)

Alli said...

Awww....TT! That was so sweet! I think we all need to remind ourselves and each other every now and then how great we truly are. Our hubbies, family, and good friends loves us for who we are, who we were and what we will become. Unfortunately, we forget sometimes & are too hard on ourselves. I sometimes tell Pups that I wish I could see myself the way he sees me so that I wouldn't be so hard on myself. So you see, I totally relate to your thoughts here.

I love you telling us stories about the wonderful things Lovee does. He is soooo sweet!!! I definitely see where Pups gets it from. :)

I think you're wonderful...just the way you are. :)

tt said...

Thanks girlie's....
loves and hugs to all ya'll!