Thursday, March 31, 2011

March 11,2011

Mom woke Lovee and I up a wee bit after midnight..."Daddy's gone"....that's all I heard as I jumped out of bed and ran into their room.

I had given him his meds a bit after 9....pulled the covers up snuggly around him....stroked his head and kissed him goodnight.  I told him I was going to bed; that Mom was sleeping; that Lovee would be back in to give him some more medicine in a couple hours; that I  loved him and hoped he had sweet dreams and slept tight....and that I'd see him in the morning.

sometime btw then and midnight he left us.
It had been Mom's wish that he would make his journey on March 11.  That way she'd only have one date to brother's and daddy's. His last gift to her....was the date.

The service was so nice.  I've never attended a funeral where ppl laughed so much.  He would have liked that.  He was such a kidder and jokster.  My sweet, sweet Lovee wrote and delivered the eulogy. Dad had told sisterlittle and I years ago that he thought it'd be nice if she and I could say something nice abt him at his funeral....fat chance of that we thought.. :)
Lovee did it for us.  He struggled at times but got through it with such love.
Our pastor did a tremendous job...she was so so fond of dad and he thought the world of her.  She often came to visit him and he would always perk up whenever she walked through the door. 
So glad she was able to officiate at the funeral.

We saw people at the chapel we hadn't seen in years....interesting I thought.  Dad's old golf buddies from wayyy back...friends they hadn't seen in years...friends I hadn't seen in years....
Made me start thinking again...
I decided not to pursue that any more...not worth it.  I was at peace with everyone and everything.

I still don't know how to do this....but I'm learning.
I'm giving myself time....
feeling tremendously blessed and grateful for having the honor to care for him.
He's whole now.  No glasses are needed...he can confusion....he's young again.  Peacefully.

I love you Daddy.
Have sweet dreams and sleep tight


The Queen said...

You do know how to do this.. one step at a time.. one foot in front of the other.. always looking forward with hope..and backwards with nothing but fond memories and love.. that's how it's done.. you can do this..

CheekyMonkey said...

Oh my gawd I love you. Don't forget, dad's hangin out with loved ones... laughing and being the jokester as always.
You are an amazingly strong woman and like I've said a bazillion times already, I feel SO blessed to have you in my life!

Unknown said...

I'm preparing to walk this journey, and I think The Queen is right: one step at a time...
Your parents have been so blessed to have you as their caregiver. What a tremendous blessing it was that your Daddy went peacefully in his sleep, and on March 11th as a gift to his beloved wife. You loved him to the very end.
So proud of your Lovee. I just visited my mom and she wants my younger brother and/or me to deliver the eulogy. I don't know if I will be strong enough when the time comes.

Karen (formerly kcinnova) said...

That comment above is from me... someone in the family forgot to log out!!

tt said...

thank you sweet people. :)

Farmer*swife a/k/a Glass_Half_Full said...

Terri, thank you for sharing this with us. I've said before that my Daddy is so strong, vibrant and invincible. But time lays a foundation no one likes. I'm fearful for the time where you are. Both with Daddy, my mom, and my MIL and FIL.

You will forever be an example to me. {HUGS}

Herrad said...

Hi tt,
So sorry to read about your beloved daddy passing.
I will be thinking about you.

Herrad said...

Hi TT,
I hope you are well, take care.
Please call by my blog and pick up your awards.
I hope you enjoy passing them on as I have.
Its a pleasure to visit you and read your posts.

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Hope everything is fine now. This is part and parcel of life you can,t escape it

pylgrym said...

We too will soon be "gone" ... whither?