Friday, February 29, 2008


OCD + fear of loosing control + micro-managing + blindness + self pity + loss of joy + martyrdom + attention.getting.actions.and.words= Mom

I'm toast.


Company's coming!!! I think anyway. I'll let you know. :)
So, I'm maybe half way through my re-organizing project. Egads we've got a lot of shit stashed round this house. I'm a 'throwawayer' myself, but Lovee does like to hang on to stuff a bit. So, I tend to hang on to stuff a wee bit longer to make sure it's ok if I toss it. All that does is take up valuable room in the grape (which I can NOT afford. I need all the grape room I can get. It gets crowded in there ya know) trying to keep it all sorted out in there. It's all catagorized in my grape storage room....full, but neatly arranged.

You'd think that by moving every 2 to 3 years while we were in the USMC we wouldn't have accumulated so much stuff. Well, that's partly correct. We haven't moved since 1997 though so there's the problem. I think Lovee has all his paperwork from his police days AND Marine Corps days. At least 35 years worth of paperwork,manuals,technical books and what-nots are stashed in various boxes around our casa. So, where to put it all? That's the question of the moment. So, to keep sane, I tell myself 'take your time-don't rush-you'll find the perfect place...........someday. :)

Anyway......The Dad is going to try and play golf today. Yep, it's only 35 degrees out right now and by 9 a.m. it should be about 40ish. It needs to be that for him to be comfortable. I hope it works. I'm glad he's feeling well enough to try it though. His partner is willing so we'll see.
While he's doing that, I'll probably have to entertain the Mom. That's not an easy thing to do. I can't wait.** insert 'sneer' here**

AND........tadah!!!!!******** I'm learning how to text! I know...I'm a wee bit slow to warm up to ideas sometimes but when I do, watch out! Sisterlittle was showing me how to text while she was here and it looked fun. I never wanted to before b/c I couldn't see the sense in it. but, turns out it's kinda fun. So, I added it to our plan and Viola'!! I'm texting. ETK thinks I've created a monster...:) does Sunshine girl and you know what? I am! LOL It's so fun. Like a new toy. It's the little things for me.

So, it's Friday and that means.............what? I don't get any whole days off untill.....let's see....ummmm.....I don't know...another 9 days or so. But that's ok, a couple 'half' days off will work for me. I've realized the 'whole' days off are very important to my peace of mind, and it doesn't really hurt the parentals if I'm not there for one day. Things are running fairly smooth these days so no guilt here. But the Dad does have a Dr. appt. Monday, hence the no full day off thing, but it's an important appt. so I'm fine with that.
I'm rambling now so I'll stop. I think I squished the grape a wee bit to hard here, because it's coming out a mushy mess.

Monday, February 25, 2008

I'm outie.... :)

Well, I may not be posting for a while. Nothing big or urgent to keep me from it but I've become obsessed with getting organized. We finally sold our dinette set on Craig's list and bought a desk. I'm sooooo excited I can hardly stand it. I was busy all day making files. Lovee bought me a super-duper label maker and 4 boxes of hanging folders. I used 2 whole boxes and I'm working on the third! Can we say OCD??

I still have some stuff to buy. I need a big plant to put in the corner to hide the tower thingie for the computer. I put our TV trays there for now. Not crazy about THAT look but it'll do for another week or so untill I find what my minds sees. :) I got to put Lovee's 'stuff' out on the book shelf part of the desk and got to hang his FBI print and FBINA grad pic. That made me happy.

I got my pink Flamingo on top of our new wireless monitor.....yeah....we finally stepped into the new era. lol Too many wires!!

Lovee took a pic of the desk with me talking to ETK on the phone but for some reason I can't get it to post. I'll have to work on that. She looked real cute in the pic tho...all smiley and sleepy. ;)

Nonsensical post here.......sorry......

I'll read ya'll later

Friday, February 22, 2008

Good news....

Well for me anyway.
The Mom had her dr. appt. yesterday. She's been wanting hip replacement surgery for some time now. Poor gal, she's on Kadian twice a day which is basically Morphine and Lortabs every four hours for the break-through pain. she's had a couple of failed back surgeries and 4 Rotator Cuff surgeries,a total knee replacement and well, she's just plain old. 83 to be exact. Anyway, she's thought for a long time that if she got a new hip some of her pain would go away. I know they hurt her from time to time, but replacement surgery is reeaaal invasive I tell her. I've talked to her for a while now about the recouperative time it would take if she had her hip replaced. She doesn't think it would be so bad. HUH?? Wha.... She's always jumped whenever a Dr. mentioned surgery. It's a cure-all to her. Even though it DOESN"T cure her...she still goes for it.
Well, yesterday the Doc said NO. Yep, he told her she has at least a couple of good years left in those hips. So what does she say? "Well, I wasn't wanting the surgery anyway. " HUH?????
I said a silent prayer of thanks and mouthed that to the Dr. who actually winked at me as if he knew.
So, it's good news to me because I can let go of the horror that's been building in my mind of what was in store for the Dad an I if she had the surgery. You just can't imagine what she puts us...(read: me) through during those times.
Am I selfish? I don't think so. As so many ppl have pointed out to me, I've got to remember to take care of myself too. I won't do them anygood if I get too worn down. And her having surgery would wear the shit out of me. she's a most demanding person to say the least.
So, since she's saying she didn't want it anyway, that's what I'm going with too. surgery!!!
The Dad was put on some new meds to help with his dizziness and it seems to be working. YAY!!! again! All of his labs came back fine. First off he was convinced his heart was going to stop and second, being dizzy all the time made him very anxious. To the point of hyperventilateing actually. Do you know how hard it is to convince an 82 year old man who can't hear or see to breathe properly? It's exhausting. Plus, throw some dementia in the mix and it actually becomes a wee bit comical.'s my saving grace.

It's Friday people. Let us rejoice and be glad in it!!!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, February 21, 2008

weather+Ice+driving = worried Dad

Yesterday the all knowing weather ppl told us we were in for another ice storm. Grreat! Well, that made my Dad anxious. He was giving me instructions for being safe on the hi-way and telling me to watch out for those 'other' ppl out there. I could tell he was wanting me to just stay there. Spend the night. Again. Well, I just couldn't do it. I did my best to reassure him and tried to calm his fears. I said if it was real bad I'd wait and drive down later....yada,yada,yada....
I told him I was optomistic about the weather and talked upbeat about everything being ok.
Then this morning I watched the weather and much to my surprise, the roads are fairly good this morning. Yay! I could feel some of my previous days guilt fall away. Thank goodness.
I know one of my objectives concerning the parentals is to keep them comfortable and relieve them of as much worry as I can. But, it's sooooo HARD for me to stay there IF I don't have to. Even if it gives my wee Dad something else to worry about I just can't do it all the time. Ugh....
Talk about role reversal....just like when the kids were young and were always wanting something.....It's just not going to happen all the time.
Bad daughter........
I know, I'm not a bad daughter, but still.........................
Will it ever get easier? Ummm, I don't think so.

Monday, February 18, 2008

Picture Gallery....

Here she is!! My sisterlittle!
She's so stinkin' cute.....pfftt..
Anyway she and her hubby left this morning to go back to Denver. She's got to be back to her class tomorrow...she's a great teacher...8th grade no less....ugh!

And then, there is the family photo. S.L, Dad,Mom and me......

Then there's the proud papa's.....Babyboy with Gabriel...and Celene in the background. BB is actually stradling Gabe!! Gosh he's a big ol' boy.....Gabe that is! :)

Here's my B-inlaw getting smooches from Gabriel! How cool is that? They were both a wee bit apprehensive about the whole 'wolf' thing, but once they saw how gentle and accepting they were everyone realxed. You can sort of see Lovee in the background with Celene...awwww....

Is it possible for them to get any cuter??? The white one has the cutest pink nose and paws!

Chow time!!! :)
the one that's having her lunch 'upside down' totally cracked us up. I wish I could figure out how to get it on U-Tube. Lovee did a wee video on our camera but we've not figured out how to transfer it..

And this is the gorgeous Gabriel. Proud Papa of 8 of the most adorable wolf cubs!

S.L. and I holding two of the little cuties!

So that's it for now. Babyboy said they should have their eyes open in about a week. That'll be fun! More pics later.
I think they are hoping to keep 4 of the cubs and sell the others. I know the white one is staying for sure. He's already been named Nanook I think. How to choose??!!!

Sunday, February 17, 2008

Sisterlittle and the new babies....

Ok........first off, before you do anything else you MUST to to Sunshine's blog and see the wolf cubs!!! They are too cute for sure!!! Their are 8 of them... and this is her first litter for Pete's sake ! There is one white cub and the rest are mottled like their dad, Gabriel. Celene, the Mom, is white. Way too cute.
Lovee and I are taking sisterlittle and her hubby to see them today. Sisterlittle is a bit of a scarety-cat because they also have a Rott-Pitt mix. But her name is befitting for her....Baby! She's the most docile dog ever. Fact, she's a bit like my Panda. Panda's a Chihuahua but a HUGE one! We call her 'short bus' because, well......if she were a real person I think she'd 'ride the short bus to school'...if you get my drift. I really believe she's a Down's syndrome dog. I can't confirm it but she's got all the classic signs. Her ears are lower on her head; she's quite chubby with shorter legs ( so she waddles) she's really smart about some things but just can't quite get the rest and she absolutely LOVES everyone and everything!! She's afraid of the dark but acts fearless. She adores our cat Tabby...and cries whenever she see's him cuz she can't get enough of him! She licks him and tries to snuggle on him. Sometimes he lets her and even plays with her but other times she gets on his nerves. It's really cute.
But I digress....... a lot .....sorry,
Anyway, Baby's biggest harm is possibly his tail. It wags so much and so hard it can bruise you. He's so excited to see people. She just rolls over to be scratched and will just about lick you to death! So, I told sisterlittle, I'd have Babyboy put her in another room while we're visiting so she can put her fears to rest. Poor Baby!

I'll get lots of pictures I hope. But untill then go to sunshine's blog and gaze upon their loveliness!
My Grandcubies!!

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

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Did it wrok for you?

Cacrkde me up!

CAUTION: Political rant ahead!!!

Ok, I'm on my soapbox and I've gotta say this. It may not be a popular thing to do but I really don't give 2 shits!
Here goes.....
I'm sick and fucking tired of ppl saying they support our troops but are against the war in Iraq!
Do these ppl think our troops, the brave men and women who make up our military, are ignorant or just plain stupid or too simple minded to know what they did when they enlisted? We don't have a draft anymore. We have an all volunteer Armed Forces these days. Men and women enlist of their own free will because of a desire to defend our homeland of any and all terrorist be they foreign or domistic! They defend our freedoms that we so casually take for granted sometimes!! The men and women who enlisted, support their Commander and Chief and his decision to engage in this war or they WOULDN'T HAVE JOINED!!! So if our Army,Navy,Air Force,Coast Guard,National Guard and Marines support this war by possibly giving the ultimate sacrafice of their lives, litterally, then how can people say they support the troops but not the war???????? They go hand in hand.

Seriously! I'm dumbfounded over this and it makes me so angry whenever I hear it. If I hear it one more time I will not be responsible for the overload that comes out of my mouth.

Agree or doesn't matter. My views will never change.

Lovee spent 23 years serving with the U.S. Marines. Proudly! My brother made the ultimate sacrifice in Viet Nam with his life ! Hardly anyone supported the troops back then and most of them were drafted!! They had no choice...except to flee their country and go to Canada to avoid prosecution.

And what about Korea? How long have we had men and women stationed in S. Korea? Defending them against a communist takeover by N. Korea? How long? Since the fucking Korean war that's how long!! Does anyone say anything about that???? No, because we aren't losing troops now. But we did. A long time ago. But we're still there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We lose men and women in every war or conflict. It's not something to take lightly, obviously, but please don't insult these brave men and women by insulting their intelligence.

Don't pee on my shoe and tell me it's raining. I won't buy it!

Tuesday, February 12, 2008


How do I get the Super Glue off my fingers?

I know, I'm an Igmo.......they're not stuck together anymore....but there's a residue that real rough........uck.......
I've tried nail polish remover, and soap.....and lotion.....I'm stuck. ****yes, pun intended ;)***


What will I do?

My all time favorite shows are going to be on all at once!! What's with that????
Big Brother which is usually on in the summer is coming on tonight ....I think........
Survivor is on now........... AND.......
American Idol is on now!!!

Good grief!! What's a sista to do?????
I might not have time to if......

It's the little things that get me going. I love reality shows. Well, most of them anyway. Some are more stupid than others but whatever.... it's fluff....I like fluff......I go to sleep watching HGTV . Fluff is good.
What a life... :)

Can you tell I've finally mastered doing 'links'? I said, it's the little things.....
Yay for me!


Guess who's got an Anniversary today? Guess who got "Mauied" 3 years ago???
( I think it was 3......ha....has it been that long??)

Love me some Pups and Alli!!!

Celene- Sisterlittle- Dad = rambles

If you go over to Sunshine's post you can see a pic of Celene all preggers up. She got a good pic of her. We'll both take pics of the babies this weekend so I should have lots to post.

Plus my sisterlittle will be here too! YAY!!!!!!!!!!! It's only for the weekend but that's ok with me. Lovee and I won't be able to get away or anything but it'll be great to see her and her sweetie. I'll have to get some pics of her to share with ya'll. She's so dang pretty! I hope she's not too shocked at seeing the Dad. He's just not to perky these days. Plus, everytime he feels bad he immediately thinks it's his heart and he gets real anxious which makes it worse.

So, Lovee and I were talking and I asked him this question:
Do you think whenever they ( parents) feel bad that they think ...'this is it...I'm going to die."
He said yes. I agree. I just wonder how many older ppl do this. I guess it's possibly a natural thing when you're 80+ years old but how depressing would that be. Is it possible to NOT think that way when you're old?
I sincerely hope I don't do that, if I get to be that old, but who knows right? We don't even know what's ahead of us for this day much less 30 or 40 years from now. But here's the thing that keeps rolling around the grape. Let me squish it.

I take them to church every Sunday right? They've been going to this church ever since I was born. I was baptized there. So, most people who attend church every Sunday have a relationship with God right? They've been taught of the promise of everlasting eternal life. So, why are they so afraid of dying? I asked the Mom this. I said " Why are you so afraid? Heaven is supposed to be a great place where you'll be free from pain and worry and you'll live on forever in glorious peace. What a great adventure." Her reply .." I don't like adventures and I don't like change." Hummmmmm.......... " ok, so why do you go to church every Sunday?" "Because it's what we do...don't question me tt."

Conversations with the Mom are so.....umm......interesting.

Monday, February 11, 2008


EIGHT!!!! Not six..........EIGHT!!!! Celene had eight cubs! Babyboy and his gf are so proud of her. I can't wait to see them. The first one showed up just before midnight and the rest came sporadically throughout the night. BB said Celene seemed a bit surprised with the first one and acted like she wasn't sure what to do with it. :) He helped a bit to get the sack off so she could see what was going on and then she took over. How cool is that? The Dad, Gabriel, evidently was doing the regular Dad thing by pacing back and forth outside her welping box.
They thought there was a problem last night so they took her to the Vet...turned out everything was progressing as normal but the Doc took X-rays to make sure and he said there were six viable cubs, all getting into position. Ha. I guess 2 were hiding. are full of surprised aren't they?!
Hopefully next weekend we'll get the much awaited pics. Damn!! I want to see them now!
How neat........I have Grandwolves! (teehee)
Stay tuned........

Saturday, February 9, 2008

I totally missed it....

The perfect Photo Op passed me by!! Lovee and I just got back from Babyboy's place out in the country. So...... you say? Half way there I remembered I forgot the camera. Dammit!!!! Why you say? His female 'wolf' is about to give birth!!! She is so gorgeous! And so bulbous...ready to pop. The Dad, Gabe is the most beautiful wolf I've ever seen. They're not hybreds either. Full blown wolves! They're so fun to play with. Gabe is as tall as Lovee when he stands on his hind legs. Actually, I think he may be taller if he extended his body. He put his front paws on Lovee's shoulders and just started smooching him. So cute.....and we forgot the elfing camera!!!!!!! I so wanted to share the beauty of them with you. Guess it'll have to wait for a week or so untill after Celine has her cubs. THAT will be some pictures!!
Stay tuned. you won't want to miss those!

Thursday, February 7, 2008


Someone told me tonight that I need to blog so SHE knows what's going on. Hummm, well...umm.....nothing is going on. I could do a bitch post but I get tired of whining and bitching. Sometimes it makes me feel better but sometimes the bitches are so petty that it's just not worth it. So, FYI....if I don't post for a few days it's either because my life has taken a very boring turn and I don't want to bore anyone else or I'm content with nothing to say or ......I just don't want to bitch. K?

So, to make 'someone' happy.....( love u).....I will tell you something I told her. I am so in awe of strong women. We were talking about how another ( blogger) gal and I seem to live a parallel life. I refer to her as my younger self because of so many similarities. But I added that she is so much more confident that I was at her age. Seriously. She writes with a confidence that I never had at her age. Not that I don't view myself as being strong. I am. It's just that they're stronger in ways that I'm not. Strong minded women are the backbone of humanity I think. Really. There are so many blogs I read that blow me away. The strength of some of these women astounds me at times. Not physical, although that's there too, but emotionally and spiritually and intellectually. Of course we all know that my sweet ETK is awsomely all is Alli as is wee-one and her too.
I wouldn't say that I'm jealous exactly but I greatly admire them for their individual strengths.
I could name some more but I don't want to scare you... :)
Nuf said..................

Now here's a question for ya..
Has anyone ever started to pull their jeans (up after going to the bathroom) but forgot to pull their panties up first???????? Uh-huh..............yep.............for some reason I did that today. I couldn't figure out what the 'hold up' was. Seriously!! I tugged and tugged and then.....oops! Oh shit.........what??? Why'd I do that?????
I cracked myself up.

Ya'll have a good weekend.
Peace out dudes and dudettes ;)

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

What in the world..........

Hillary took our state......
It's snowing now two days ago it was 85!!!........and last but not least,
hell froze over.......

I'll explain that last statement; My sweet lil ol' Dad voted for Obama! This is the same man who wouldn't enter our house if our 'black' housekeeper was still inside.........just goes to prove you're never too old to learn something. He was determined to do it all by himself too. It remined me of a little kid who insists on dressing himself. With our ballots you have to use a pen to connect the arrows for your choice. I told him I'd do it for him but he just kept saying "here?" I' said no 3 times...then he finally got his pen close to the arrow and I said" right there" he connected it and smiled.
My Dad. He's too cute.

My Mom said it's too bad that people who are "mixed" as in half black and half white, have to be known as black. Huh??????? She said ," yeah, it'a a law" "Huh? "I said, " a law?" "yep, it's a law and I think that's sad." I told her I think they 'choose' to be 'tagged' as biracial and that there are forms that make them choose one or the other, but that it's not a law. It stayed with me though. I scratched my grape over that all day. I tried to find out it it's true but couldn't find any info. Is she nuts or am I?

Tuesday, February 5, 2008

My Three Stars........

For several years now, Lovee and I look for 'our' stars where ever we are. We looked when we were in Hawaii, Greece, the Grand Canyon...everywhere. It's what we do. We're stargazers. We love to swim at night and get on a floatie and just look up at all the stars. When we had the meteor showers last summer we used to drive out into the country so we could see them better whenever they wized by. Too cool in my book. Facinating! Anyway our favorite to look for is Orions Belt. It's always facinated me. Whenever Lovee was gone or on the road we would look at that constellation while we talked on the phone. It made the distance seem not so great that way.
Sillyhuh? You should go look for it tonight.
Just thought I'd share that :)

Good Grief!!!!!! What????

Yesterday we woke up to 60 degree temps. It set a record for for our Okie state. Then later on we reached another record breaking temp of 82!! 80 elfing 2!! We were sweating for Pete's sake.
Okie weather is crazy.
Now today, it's presently 51 degrees with thunder boomers moving in and will drop to 35 later on today.
Good ol' Oklahoma weather. Just wait a day and it's another season.
I LOVED it yesterday though. I think I can get through another 6 weeks of winter now.
Damn that groundhog anyway!

Sunday, February 3, 2008

Mama got a new toy....

So far I've gone through 2 big crossword puzzle books since I've been a beck and call girl. It, for some reason, lets my mind relax. Which is funny to me because you have to constantly think to fill those in. I'm not going to try to figure that one out., after I got the parentals home from church, there was someone there to buy Dads Mustang. Yes!!! It's a done deal. They left a deposit and will be back tomorrow after the banks open to give them the rest of the cash. Dad was happy that it went to someone who really loves Mustangs. This guy had a 91 that he sold and regretted it. So........
Anyway ( again) when I got home lovee told me to hold out my hand for a surprise. I so love surprises!!! He had bought me this. It's so neat. I haven't used it for my crossword puzzles yet but it's got a killer Hangman game that I've already become addicted to. LOL -- I think I may be cheating though. I use the most popular letters from Wheel of Fortune which are r-s-t-l-n and e and some other vowels to start and it's working real well so far. :) I'm easily intertained huh? (it's a good thing)
That's my lovee...always trying to make my life interesting in some fashion or another.

Saturday, February 2, 2008

I borrowed.....

Hummmmmmm....I borrowed this from reh and thought it interesting. Not too sure it accurately describes me but, some of it is right on!!

JULY: Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

I thought the prone to having stomach and dieting problems ws funny...true but funny.
Forgiving but never forgets is soooo true.
I don't think I brood either.
And I do like nonsensical and unnecessary things.....takes all kinds huh!

My sunshine girl might like some of these. Our birthdays are only one day apart. I sang 'Happy Birthday to me' ...while on a gurney going to get my tubes tied the day after she was born.. Ha...

Surfs up.....

I was channel surfing this evening and just happened to stop on the Glenn Beck show. Not something I usually do but his guest captured my attention right away. Not to mention that Glenn Beck was crying! So I went to this site and read the story.
It was just very moving and I wanted to share.