a small request for my blobbies....

Lovee and I watched a movie last night on HBO. I have no words to describe my feelings through it all. To say I had the dreaded 'throat lump' all the way through it comes close though.

It's called "Taking Chance".

It's a must see even if you do cry and feel horrible....because afterwards you'll feel humble and in awe and you will never be the same. Seriously.

It's a story about a Marine Colonel who volunteers to escort a fallen Marine home and his journey getting there.

I'm a Marine wife. I had one son in the Army and another in the Marines. My brother was killed in 67 in Viet Nam.
I had no clue that there was such a process.
Not a clue.

Please watch it. In my humble opinion it's a must see for the entire country.

Semper Fi

I'm back!!!

Guess what I didn't take to Denver........my camera!!!
OMG!! .......seriously.......I looked all over for it for days before I left and couldn't find the damn thing! SFD!

Had a fabulous flight there and back. Completely surprised myself by being calm. Of course the fact that I had a double 7&7 before each flight probably helped. lol
Denver airport was actually fairly easy to figure out. Did you know they have a 'smoking lounge'...? yep.....used it before I left Monday! ha...imagine that!

When sisterlittle pulled up to get me the first words I said were " Hey skiny bitch"...lol
There was a gal on the curb waiting for her ride who started laughing and said " Your sister?"
I said yep ....she said she says the same thing to her sister. LMAO..........good times.

Had the most fabulous time with her. The party Friday night to celebrate her divorce which was official on thursday...and my arrival was the bestest! She has an amazing group of friends..so supportive and caring and fun and loud when they're drunk. lol....who knew teachers were such partiers?
We shopped and shopped and ate and shopped and talked and talked.........slept a wee bit too. :) Her house is absolutely perfect for her. Exactly her style and since she was an interior designer before she became a teacher.....it's decorated perfectly. LOVE IT!!!

But no pictures.:(
I was going to buy a disposable one but never got around to it. Dammit! We did buy her one but she didn't have time to learn it. :(
Next time.....
We've aleady decided that I'll go back next year for the 'anniversary' party!

Lovee was wonderful to the parentals of course. He got to skip church on Sunday though. He was working on a project and asked if they would skip church so he could finish before I got home and they agreed.
We have a 3 car garage and the 3rd garage side is his workshop.....we've been talking about building a wall so all the wood dust wouldn't fly all over.....and he did! OMG.,.....it's perfect. He's got all his tools....tons of tools and woodworking equipment all organized........wow! He's just amazing.
I sooooo missed him though. I really don't like going places w/o him. I miss him terribly. But......sometimes I gotta. Sisterlittle needed me and I needed to see her. So..........

Anywho, Im officially back.
The washing machine is humming.....pooches are running in and out...HGTV is on the television... the bed's made...bills are paid.....I'm ready to head out to the parentals....uh-O...
Oh shit!!.......I haven't done my paint and spackle yet.....SFD!
Gotta jet..........

I'll try and catch up with everyone later on .....I missed ya'll......;)

P.S. Found the camera the night I got back! It was in my sewingroom! Right where I left it after taking a pic of my Sunshine gal sewing. Imagine that! UGH!....my grape is so grapey at times :)

My yesterday, today and tomorrow....

Yesterday, the Dad walked over to me with newspaper in hand and says
" TT, are you busy?"
" Nope, what ya need?"
" Well, ( insert slight giggle ) read this article, it starts here(pointing) and tell me if you can figure out what the hell it says. (giggle) I can't figure out what it means."
" Ok....( reading)"

A few minutes pass...............while the Mom say to mute the TV.......she wants to listen.

"Well, it's just talking about how a guy lost 3 friends to a shooting....and how the shooting happened."
" But who are all those people they're talking about?"
" "The people who died, the person who did the shooting and how he was caught...how the people are related. There are a lot of different names mentioned.....they were related but had different last names."
" Well, I couldn't follow it. It's not written very well I don't think."
" No it's not Dad........It was hard for me to follow too.'
" Ok, I thought it was just me"
" Nope......the writer added too much information."
"Well, ok. I just couldn't figure out what was going on"
" that's ok......it's the writers fault not yours."
" Well, ok."
Mom says nothing...........hummmmmm....

Now........looks like a short conversation right? Nope. It actually went on for about 30 minutes! Seriously. From "well, I couldn't follow it"................to "Well, ok." .....took 30 minutes. Looping,looping.looping...................
It's wonderful that he still reads. Tries to keep up on current events and still tries to process it all. Kudos to him I say.

This is a regular happening. My life as an explainer; justifier; Reassuring that everything is 'ok.'

It hurts my heart to see him struggle while his mind slips away. But, I'm comforted by the fact that I'm here to help guide him through it all.
Comforted and tired. So, tired.
Dementia..........it's a horrible thing to watch.....day after day....knowing I have no power to stop it's ugly process.

I'm ready to see my sisterlittle.
I need just a wee break. And because of my sweet Lovee, I get one.

Watch out Denver!!!!!! Here comes TT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A wee grape squish.....

Well, Valentines day was totally fabulous!!!!! Lovee sent a quartet to sing to the Mom and me!!!! Can you imagine??? It was so cute. they sang "Let me call you sweetheart". I cried of course, cuz I'm a crier. Seriously...I cry during OnStar commercials.....McDonald's commercials...you name it...I cry. It's just what I do. Fact, there are time I want to talk to someone and I can't because I've got that dreaded throat lump thing going on. Geesh....
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Anywho......what else???...........

Friday I leave for Denver!!!! Woo-hoo!!!!! I hate...HATE to leave Lovee. But, I'm looking forward to visiting my Sisterlittle and seeing her new digs. Her divorce is final tomorrow. She's excited to have it done! Imaging that! Lovee will takeover the 'beck and call girl' duties for me with the parentals. He's just the most fabulous husband in the world.

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My sunshine gal is finally done with her weight loss thing. Gracious sakes....she's down to a size 4!!!!! She came over this weekend so I could help her make an apron.....she's so into aprons these day....go figure.....anywho, she tried on her High School Prom dress and it's loose!!! She looks fabulous but more importantly she's healthier now. Her Diabetes risk is gone. YAY FOR THAT!!!!! I used to sew all the time. Not so much anymore. But it's fun to pass along my skills to her.
I'm still the fluffy one....sisterlittle is tiny too.......most days I'm fine with it...others, not so much. Like when I went shopping Monday looking for some new clothes...ugh!! Hated it!!! I haven't bought any everyday clothes in a long time. Now I remember why. All the meds I take have a tendency to sabotage my weight. Oh well......things could always be worse though. There are blogs I read that keep my bitching in check when it comes to body image and issues. :) Gotta keep my glass half full ya know.

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I'm sure there's more I could share, but I'm just not feeling it lately. There have been several times recently when I've tried to read blogs when I'm at the parentals...but it just gets too hard. They always....ALWAYS....have questions or 'need' me to do something whenever I try. I think they can sense when I pull the laptop out and.....it just goes to shit. Whatever....:) then at night, when I get home, well, that's my Lovee time. Should I blog or spend time with Lovee???? Guess which one wins out? lol- my sweetie!!!

Have a good one blobbies. :)

Brains....or lack there of...

I'm not sure what made me have this particular thought. I admit that my grape goes to strange and unimaginary places sometimes.....part of my charm I think ;)

But..........I was wondering about my dogs. My Chihuahua's....Pebbles and Panda. Sometimes when we go out, Lovee leaves the TV on for them. For the noise he says. My SIL puts the Animal Planet station on for her pup....we just leave it on whatever channel we were watching.
So...while I was in my paint and spackle mode this morning....which is when my grape gets really active ( don't ask...I don't know why) I wondered if...when they look at the TV...do they ever wonder about what they're seeing? Do they think " geez...I'm glad I'm not in that box cuz it's really noisy....or......those people sure yell alot, I'm glad I'm not there....or....when they see animals, do they get curious and wish they were with them?

I know...silliness maxed out!

Which made me go to another querie. My own grape. There's some scary shit up there. Really....I spent a good part of last night telling Lovee how I'm jealous of people's brains. Musicians....using both hands AND their feet sometimes...all making different motions while reading music ( something I never could do)..and singing to boot!!!...It's like rubbing your head and patting your tummy at the same time. Doesn't work for me. imagine that! My brain just refuses to go there. And don't even get me started on Professors and politicians. Not that they're similar actually, but they all have brains that function on a completely different plane than mine does. I listen to some of them....amazed that others are actually understanding what was said and I'm just shaking my head saying " wha.....?"
I can't speak with big words and make any sense....but I can dance.
I can't do fractions to save my life....but I can dance.
Dance. It's my one talent. Or was. Tap, ballet, point..........loved and love everything about it.
Can't sing but I can hum......I'm a hummer ;)
My brain....I'm glad I've got it...it's serving me well.....but really, will I spend the rest of my life with silly thoughts?
See, even that doesn't make any sense.
What was it I did in High School anyway?..........hummmm, can't remember......
LOL

'Grape Juice' makes Dad feel better????

Today, sitting in church waiting for all the festivities to start the Mom looks at me and says:
" Did you turn off your cell phone"
I started laughing. And answered her question with a question. I know I shouldn't do this because it's totally backfired on me before but.....it came out before I knew it...
" Do you only remember the wrongs I do?"
Well........her answer gave me pause. Seriously........
" No, it's just that they are so few that they stick in my mind. You do too many wonderful things for me to remember."

What????? did she just compliment me? I think so. A bit of a backhanded compliment but none the less, a compliment.
I just smiled and said yes it was off.
Thanks Mom.

Not sure what's going on with her lately. She will come up to me...out of the blue... put her arms around me and give me a big ol squeeze. Usually from behind so it takes me by surprise. I'm cooking or doing dishes or something.
That is out of character for her. Completely. She never was an affectionate person. Showing feelings makes her vulnerable and uncomfortable. Used to anyway. Maybe her crusty interior is crumbling. Not the exterior mind you.....she still LOOKS crusty......but inside...getting a bit mooshy. Interesting.
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Now the Dad.....he's not feeling too perky these days. Not sure what's going on there. He doesn't give in to anything though. Yesterday when I got there and asked my usual..... "How are my parents?" Mom gave her usual reply of " Ok..got up hurting but I'm ok now" Dad's usual is " tolerable,tolerable...." but yesterday he said he was "sort of dizzy feeling". Hummmm.......
His sugar was a bit lower than normal for him so I got him some orange juice and he said he was ready to go to breakfast. "Can't make your Mom wait too much longer for her breakfast" he said. So off we went. He still felt dizzy afterwards but he wanted to go to the mall for their daily walk. So off we went. He felt a bit better when we got home.
This morning I asked the usual question....and his answer was " I didn't feel good last night...I almost woke your mother up to have her check my temperature."

Mom: Don't wake me up to read that thing cause I can't see it...and why didn't you tell me you felt bad?"
Dad: "You didn't ask."
Mom: "Well, what was wrong and how are you now?"
Dad :" I just felt all warm and sort of tinglie...all over...and my head hurt. I thought I might have a temp-a-ture" ( that's how he says it...lol)
Mom: "you're fine now right?"
Dad: Well, not really. Are we ready to go?"
Me: Are you sure you feel up to going? Maybe we should stay here and rest."
Dad: No, you're Mother is ready so let's go."
Mom: Ok, let's go."

So, off we went. He was better afterwards. He said the grape juice gave him a boost. Ha....it was Communion Sunday.....I thought of my blob!!

See, he just doesn't give in.
The Mom....she gives in alot.

Interesting

cold!!

yep....elfing cold!! 10 degrees today! But...and that's a big but... ( teehee)....the sun has made an appearance. Yay!
Sleet, freezing rain, snow, sleet, sleet= icey roads everywhere now. Uck!

I've got to try and get to the parentals today. Didn't make it yesterday. Had me a pj day. Woot!

Gotta jet...........
wish me luck with the do-dah's out there. :)

Loving that I can still learn......

For those of you who didn't know, as I didn't, the Rev. Lowery began his benediction at President Obama's Inauguration with the last verse of the Negro National Anthem, specifically:

"God of our weary years, God of our silent tears, thou, who has brought us thus far along the way, thou, who has by thy might led us into the light, keep us forever in the path we pray, lest our feet stray from the places, our God, where we met thee, lest our hearts drunk with the wine of the world, we forget thee.
Shadowed beneath thy hand, may we forever stand true to thee, oh God, and true to our native land."


I'd never heard of a Negro National Anthem before. It doesn't surprise me that I wasn't taught this. When I went to school here in Oklahoma in the 60's and 70's, our schools were segregated. It was only when I was a junior in High School that 'blacks' voluntarily were bussed to my school.
I made friends with many of them. Not because of their color but because I was just a people person. And I must admit a certain curiosity as I hadn't known any blacks personally. The closest I came was the maid we had for a while and the fact that my brothers best friend in Viet Nam was black. That was the extent of my knowledge. Sad actually.
I could never see any difference except skin color and the part of town 'they' lived in wasn't as nice as mine. Even sadder.
I remember admiring their 'tan'....often wishing I was as beautifully colored. My Irish/German ancestery kept me rather pale.

One of my blobbie friends pointed this fact...the anthem...out to me. I just never knew.
It's beautiful. Simple and beautiful. And I love it. I'm glad it has been around to inspire the masses and I'm glad I've been enlightened to this fact.
Silly me, I just thought it was a lovely prayer.

I hope I never stop learning.
It makes my soul shine with happiness.

really??? Seriously??? Get real man!!!!!!!

Can I just say something???
Well shit...of course I can. This is my blog and I can tell someone to F off anytime I want to.
Did anyone hear what Rush Limbaugh said ????? The audacity of that man totally confounds me. I mean, come on!!!!!! I can't for the life of me understand why anyone....especially an American, who purports to love his country (like Raunchy-Rush)would say he hopes President Obama 'FAILS". Seriously! Come on!!!!!........
Even when we or should I say 'I' have a President whom I/we don't agree with, it's just not right to publically say it's a hope that our President fails. It's not a Republican issue or a Democrat issue. It's a country issue.
Because if they were to fail then we all do. Sure some policies suck or ideas are put into play that don't exactly help us the way 'we' think they should....but to say "I hope he fails" is just too arrogant for me.
Maybe I've worn my rose colored glasses too long or my Pollyanna ideas still poke me in the ol' grape too often but...........really. Really?
Freedom of speech is important. Totally important!! I get that. But so is personal responsibility for ones actions and along with that, their speech.
Personally, I've never cared for Rush. I think he's a bore and a braggart. I think he uses his platform to bully and point out the flaws of everyone but himself.

That being said....this is just my humble opinion. I take full responsibility for my words and thoughts. I'm not on a radio program where I'll share my thoughts with millions of other people. I'm not that brash nor do I feel the need of saying something in public to garner a bunch of attention to feed my ego.
I just needed to vent a bit.
Arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrghhhhh........he really gets under my skin.
Now I need a bath........I gotta scrub that shit off.
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On a more interesting note.............we're frozen here. Litterally!! Ice storm...again. Not as bad as the one we had in December of 07...but bad enough that I won't be able to get to the parentals tomorrow! Eeeeeeekk! Needless to say the Mom isn't happy. Really? pfft....
Either I stay home tomorrow so I can arrive safe Wednesday......or......I risk it tomorrow and maybe end up in a mangled mess on the highway. Which is it Mom? Hummmm?? Oh??? Stay home then?? Ok...:) thankyouverymuch.
I fixed their pill containers Sunday after church just in case I couldn't get there. That was the Dad's idea and a good one. There's plenty of food in their house that she can fix. Casseroles in the freezer...speghetti sause in the freezer....homemade soup in the freezer....lots of food. No appointments untill Wednesday. They'll be fine. She's not convinced.

I should let her borrow my rose colored glasses or read Pollyanna to her. Maybe????

So, tomorrow, Lovee is going to try and make it to work. Gotta get those Wal~mart trucks out on the road ya know. I'll be keeping all my crossables crossed for him; possibly holding my breath untill he calls and tells me he's there.
Then..........my pajamma day will start. Woo-hoo!!

Have a good day!
Wave at the sun for me and send him over :)

Squishing some grapes....

there's a....what do I call it?......annoyance maybe.....that has agravated me FOREVER. it's actually fairly petty so I haven't mentioned it before...i don't think. :) maybe I have, I don't know...don't care...I'm just gonna vent a bit........
anywho, it concerns the Mom. Bet you guessed this already didn't you? lol...ahem.....

Mom has this habit of giving orders. it's not something new; she's always done it. She doesn't request or ask, she orders. it completely irks me. In fact, there are times I want to ground her and send her to her room when she does it...THAT'S how much it pisses me off.
"turn the TV to channel 8"
"don't put the table so close to the window"
"get me a kleenix"
"go get........"
"bring .............."
"do................"
"stop doing that"
"if you want me to listen talk louder"

It's not the demands or 'orders' per se...it's that she seldom, if ever, says 'please' or 'if you don't mind would you'...or even thank you after the task is completed. Drives me nucking futs I tell you. AND...in the process of saying these things she's got a nasty frown on her face. Well, that's not entirely accurate....the nasty frown is just the way her face is...I think it froze that way. Seriously.

All this got me to thinking.....
sisterlittle and I were raised by the 'do as I say, not as I do' rule. I remember her admonishing us...out in public, if we ever forgot to say thank you or please. it was expected of us to do these things....but not expected of her.
this is no exageration. Ugh!!!!!!!!!!
sisterlittle and I are every polite. For which I thank the Mom for actually..............but I suppose it just never occurred the Dutches of mean to apply her own lessons to herself.

Demanding little shit .................. just take a deep breath tt

Like I said. It's petty but geeze Lousie............it just goes all over me like a bad elfing rash!!!!

Just because you're old doesn't give you the right to order people around.
Anyway....I said "please" to her when she 'told' me to do something earlier today. ....

Mom: " tt,make the cookies ."
me: ......(sigh)....please??
Mom: "please what?"
tt: "aren't we supposed to say please when we want something?"
Mom: "am I a child"
tt: " no, but that's just polite...at least that's what my Mom used to tell me when I was little"
Mom: " your Mom had a big mouth...(long pause)......please"
Tt: .......thank you....I'll make them after lunch if that's ok
Mom: that's fine.........(long pause)...............thank you.

Pffftttttt...............whatever..........
I'm over it now.....for now...until it happens again..........
cookies are good.........oatmeal raisen with pecans!! Yummy!

Another funny...I just can't help it...

Kitty Stutter


A teacher is explaining biology to her 4th grade students. "Human Beings are the only animals that stutter," she says.

A little girl raises her hand. "I had a kitty-cat who stuttered."

The teacher, knowing how precious some of these stories could become, asked the girl to describe the incident.

"Well", she began, "I was in the back yard with my kitty and the Rottweiler that lives next door got a running start and before we knew it, he jumped over the fence into our yard!"

"That must've been scary," said the teacher.

"It sure was," said the little girl. "My kitty raised his back, went Sssss, Sssss, Sssss" and before he could say "Shit," the Rottweiler ate him!

The teacher wet her pants laughing.

squishie...squishie.....( snort)

I wonder if when Michele Obama walk into a room full of ladies if she belts out-

"Hola Bitches!!"

Yea...I don't think so either..........gigglesnort.
Wonder if she ever has??
yea, probably not...........
Good thing Lovee isn't into politics.....I'd be hung out to dry...litterally! ha

She's just so classy acting....made me wonder yesterday when she was being all prim and proper. I do that too...when I have to. At church ( duh) and at the Country Club with the parentals ( pfft) and when Lovee was in the USMC and we were at the Ball ( FUN!!)
I'm just glad I don't have to do it often. Ugh...I'd be exhausted. lol

todays funny.......

Got this in an email yesterday and I almost blew snot bubbles. I shouldn't read stuff when I'm drinking. lol

"You are on the bus when you suddenly realize ... you need to fart.
The music is really loud, so you time your farts with the beat.
After a couple of songs, you start to feel better as
you approach your stop. As you are leaving the bus, people
are really staring you down, and that's when you realize,
you have been listening to your ipod."

Sounds just like something I would do!!!

Well,,whatcha think?

Hummmmmmmmmm??????....just trying out something I learned over at the Fairy Princess' blog. Interesting yes???? No?????
I'm thinking it's groovy-cool.
AND...more inportantly....I did it all by myself...Ta-dah!!!
Fiwa also has one on hers. I always thought it was the neatest thing but was too shy to ask her how she got it....not to mention my whole 'I'm-challenged' thing. then I saw Princess K with one and thought....what the heck..let's give it a go.....lol

FYI-here's the place to get one..

picture overload...

Lovee and SIL after the funeral. Lovee was scrunched down on the couch....looks like he's coming out of his coat...lolBabyboy aka..#3 son, Sunshine gal and Pups aka..#2 son after the funeral. The boys had on sunglasses earlier and looked a wee bit mafia. lol

have you seen enough of my gorgeous sisterlittle??? There's a lot more below...I can't get enough of her....I love her hair. She went gray a long time ago. Me.....just a few sprinkles here and there...bummer! Of course she's a skinny do-dah and I'm fluffy....whatever...lol

If the Mom knew I put this picture anywhere but the trash she'd have my head!!!!!!!!!! This is her normal look though....uh-huh....reminds me of those Maxine cards only w/o the humor. But hey...I guess when your blind and 84 you can look any way you want...right?

3rd installment of Photos...:)

Lovee and I at Christmas. You can almost see the 'Heart of the Ocean' necklace he gave me ;)Loee relaxing at the Parentals house....The Mom was probably talking...he's such the captive audience.

Dad opening his gift from my niece. It's a Mr. Talk Radio....basically a talking head. He LOVES it.

The Mom when my sisterlittle first got there. She has to get up close and personal to see anything. She and Dad said this was the best Christmas ever. Awww........

Another pic of me. Wanted you to see the necklace. It's huge.!!!

Sisterlittle,niece,the Mom and nephew............Nephew lives in New York...Sister and niece in Denver.

a couple more pics.....:)

We went to Tahlequah, Ok....SIL graduated College there...This sign shows the meaning of the word.............. cute huh?
My adorable and lovable SIL's.....Blue sweater( SIL) is the one who graduated at Northeastern ( Tahlequah ) Red sweater is the SIL who just lost her husband. As you can see...smiles were abundant.

the long awaited picture montage...partial viewings

sisterlittle and me..........doing a 'tuck and roll' at the airport............... :(Lovee and Sunshine gal at my BIL's funeral..... ain't they cute!

the parental Dad and I at our Saturday morning eatin' joint....Village Inn

My niece, Punky and Sunshine gal....beautimus gals there!!!!!!

The most fabulous picture ever!!!!! Sisterlittle and her Urchins!!!! Wow!

??? maybe????

China and the United Kingdom. Yep........sound familiar to anyone??
I'm thinking I have blog-lurkers from there; according to my world map.
Really makes me curious. Are they poor souls trying to learn English from my terrible example?? Or....what? Maybe...possibly caregiver-beck and call girl-people?
I'm curious by nature so this drives me nucking futs!

I see Squiddly's dot down Cuba's way at Gtmo.....Hi babe!!!! Love you :)

but really.........write something...even if I can't understand it..
Not your regular peeps.....I saw that before where you tried being all sneaky and shit....I ain't buying it again...:)

So, I'm a bit on the bored side today. Can you tell?
Uh-huh......I'll go now.
No need to inflict it upon you.
Later all ya'll....................

It's snowing!!!!!....sorta

Can I get a ..... HELL YES!!!!!!

I'm a snowbaby actually. Maybe cuz I was born in July? Naw, that doesn't make sense. I just love snow. And now it is.
It's about 10 degrees with a wind chill of about -4 !!!! Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr it's cold!!!
We're only getting a slight dusting but still..........it's snowing!
What I'm finding odd is that there's more 'dust' in our backyard than in the front. Our house faces east so the back is west....duh!!......but isn't that odd. If our house faced north I wouldn't be scratching my head .....I'm easily entertained remember?!

I'll just ponder that with the whole age thing today.

What I'd love to see happen....in my grape anyway...not IRL... is to have so much snow that we just couldn't possibly get out of the house for a few days. Seriously. The down side to that is that I'd worry about the parentals cuz I know they'd be panicked.(..they do that really well on good weather days) How would they ever manage w/o my 12 year old self? Yep...they would turn themselves inside out with worry. But still..................these are the things dreams are made of. :)
I took pictures to show ya. Of course I'll have to get Lovee to upload them for me.....
yes...we've already established how challenged I am, so knock it off. :)

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Has anyone heard that taking an antihistamine for extended periods of time makes you gain weight in your...um.... middle section? Sunshine gal said her Dr. told her that. Rx or OTC.... doesn't matter. If taken for prolonged periods of time.....instant muffin top!
WTF??? I've taken Benedryl forever....to help me sleep. Works better than anything else I've tried. We're talking years here. And yes....I've got some serious love handles especially good for giving Lovee something to hang on to during our 'magic' time ...sorry I know that's TMI so I tried not taking them. That lasted only one night. Shitty sleep...or actually fitful sleep. I talked to Lovee about it and he assured me he loves me anyway he can get me....fluffy or not. So I went back to my sleepers last night. Gotta love that man!!!!!!

(note to self: post Christmas pics!!!!)

**** read my 'Ponder' post below**** I need answers................